I created this Blog area so I would have a place to post updates about Frank's health. This will also be used to share myself and Frank's thoughts. Now that Frank has passed the new mission is to spread awareness. I will share that here
Time to lay down and get some much needed sleep. Tonight I go to bed with a clear mind and happy in that me and hubby together planned his service it was so awesome being able to have him answer all the questions and know exactly what he wants and does not want. Very productive day today and hubby actually had a bit of a better day then yesterday. Amazing all the way up until the end we will together make sure everything is handled. The only thing I will not be able to do with my husband is take his journey to paradise however he will be booking me a ticket for a later date when he does get there Hug your family tell them you love them and be happy they are here with you today. Gn everyone
Had an a heartbreaking but much needed chat with my hubby last night. I told him everything i needed to say and then told him if he sees the light to run toward it and not look back. He is the true meaning of a "fighter" and i love him to much to let him think he needs to hang on for me. I love you babe always and forever
I called Sue one of my favorite people from the cancer center and had hospice set up. She kept telling me how great amazing and awesome it was that I was doing what I was doing and I said it is my job. I find it hard to believe that any wife would do anything other however sue explained some cannot deal with it or handle it and i thought oh wow really!! As a wife whether you can handle it or not it is your job is that not what vows are? My husband will live out his life in his home in his own bed no where else. That is what a marriage is about you just do it whether you can handle it or not you figure it out and do it plain and simple.
Today hospice was called and Frank was signed up for services. They dropped off some supplies and then the nurse came. She explained everything to us that we already knew as well as many things we did not know. One of the hardest moments was when she asked my husband "Do you want Wendy to call 911?" he said no and for me that hit a real hard note because although I knew it was going to happen to watch him sign a DNR at only 38 just kills me on the inside. I know it is the right thing because he has suffered way to long however it is a reality many can easily talk about however when coming face to face with it it brings things to a whole new level. Kasey came by and we got to talk and vent to each other and for me it was such a relief. She got to see her brother and talk a little to him and be at ease that she got to spend some time with him. I am just glad we have everything in place so that Frank has the comfort he wants and he is where he wants to be in his very own home. Thank you all for supporting us.
Today has not been a good day at all. Hubby got up and went to recliner for the nurse to change his needle and cartridge but was out of breathe just from the walk. She is calling the doctor as they believe he now needs oxygen. Frank and I had a brief conversation and have decided to call in hospice. Emotionally I am empty at this point. I cry without thought think that is from what I watch actually. Thank you all for supporting us and please remember DO NOT TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED love your family and hug your family